06 2 / 2011
Fifth day
Letter to your crush:
dear boy,
Even though I haven’t seen you since the fifth grade, and have probably never even spoken a word to you then, I find myself somehow falling for you more and more each day, five years later. I found you on facebook, and out of nowhere, I decided to try and talk to you. I didn’t expect you to be so engaged in the conversation and continue to carry it on. You were different from everyone I’ve ever talked to. You seemed to actually care, I felt an instant connection. & As shallow or whatever as this sounds, but I really liked the way you typed, none of those annoying slang words, abbreviations, or cursing. I respected you so much for that. I loved the way you typed out every single word and used complete sentences and grammar. (It kind of turned me on…) Wow, I sound like a complete idiot, but that’s okay, since you’re never going to see this. But, even though I hardly know anything about you, the things that I do know, make me keep wanting to know more. I wish you never moved or transferred schools, but, I might have never even got to know you like I do if you hadn’t, since I have a hard time being myself around the people I see everyday. I just want to say that you are really really good looking, haha, and I admire the fact that you’re an aspiring film maker. You’ve become that one person that I constantly look forward to talking to every single day. You’ve become the person that can make me smile on my worst days. You’ve become the person that I can tell anything to. && I so wish that there was some way that we can just hang out, as friends, because anything more would just be completely awkward. I am definitely not girlfriend material.
I don’t know if this is so much of a crush, or if I just really desperately long for you to become my best friend. A best friend would be nice.
